Monday, September 29, 2008;
............I hate my life.................I feel so lonely.............Why must this happen to me!!!!!
I woke up in the morning,getting ready to go to school.
Reacieve a msg from Hong Jie,saying that he just woke up(sian cannot outreach)
Dont feel like going to school after reading the msg....and to make matters worst.
My very irritating brother dont want to go to school(I HATE HIM)!!!!!!!!!!!
My mum have to shout and shout and shout!!!!!!!!!!!
But still he did not go to school...
He's making my mum sicker and sicker....
I was so angry that i use my keyboard to wack him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He still did not go to school...........................
I was force to call my Dad(who isnt living with us due to a fued that last for 5 years already)...
My mum dont want me to call my dad cause the last time i call him,he was drunk and he wack my mum...
But i was forced to..........i kept crying and crying dunno what to do...(why must this happen to me)
I felt very stressed,exams are coming,and my father has told me before that while he is not staying with us, he wants me to be in charge.......i felt so stressed at that moment.....
And to make matters worst my mum said that she wants to divorce with my dad....
I kept shouting I DONT WANT!!!!!!I DONT WANT !!!!!!!!!! I DONT WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(I really dont want to see my parents to divorce)
AND ALL THIS HAPPEN BECAUSE SOMEONE DOESNT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really dont know what to do.....
So i turned to GOD......
I went out of the house and sat at the block next door.....
I kept praying and praying that he will give me a solution.....
After praying i really felt better....
The rest of day i felt more peaceful.....
I REALLY WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME,TO CARE FOR ME.
Because until now nobody really care for me........
I love you God ~
11:08 PM
